I failed a test the other day. The test was very important for me because the result of the test would decide if I could enter a school. The school has a program that is for English teachers who want to teach English to foreign learners and is called "TESOL". Entering this school and taking the course was my goal of studying abroad in the U.S.A.
Since I decided my goal, I have been strict about my English studying; I have been speaking only English, shutting any Japanese language out such as music, books, dictionaries, and others, and participating in all my classes with maximam effort, because I have been aware that the goal of studying with other students who are native English speakers at the school is formidable.
However, I failed the test. When I was coming back all the way from the school after the test, in the bus I listened to a Japanese song, and everything in my sight - passengers and scenery gliding by- seemed like a dream. Since the day, I have been depressed for several days.
I remember what someone said something like "If the door which you wanted to go through is closed, there is always another opened door. It depends on you whether you try to find the next door or not". The door in front of me is now closed. It depends on me if I choose to be relaxed as I give up my goal in front of the closed door or choose to go to dark and harsh place to find an open door. Now it is time to overcome obstacles.
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